Today I make it into work, but that’s about all. My brain feels heavy and I don’t really have it in me to hold more than a basic conversation. After standup I take a walk to try and feel better but when I come back to my desk I still can’t think. By 11am it’s clear that I’m not going to get any work done so after a quick chat with the CTO I just head home.
It’s inconvenient, as it’s at odds with my plans to keep a sprint blog going (attentive readers may notice that yesterday’s post was less detailed, for the simple reason that I didn’t get round to writing either that or this one until the Tuesday after).
It also feels a little bit like failure. I’ve worked in jobs, particularly early in my career, where turning up at the office has been a chore and I’d take a sick day for a cold without a second thought; but as I’ve taken on more responsibility in my work and found more fulfilment in it I’ve tended to work through sickness where I can. Today I just don’t think that’s going to work.
Still, I do keep tabs on what’s happening through the slack channel – our product manager Will is also working from home today but appears to be doing a fair bit of testing, which is a great help, and Jordi and Laura seem to be in full swing in terms of the number of tickets they are knocking off. By the end of the day it looks like we are pretty close to our expected burn down and everybody is pretty positive about our chances of getting the release out on time. That helps me switch off and relax a bit; I almost manage to spend the rest of the day without thinking about work.